After midnight last night, when Stuart and I were in deep sleep, we heard some bangings on the wall.  It was Logan kicking the wall with his leg.  Stuart went over to see Logan while I watched on the monitor.  Logan was very upset or angry; he was kicking all of his extremities on the bed.  Stuart talked to him a bit, but Logan continued to be very upset.  He first threw Daddy Bear to the wall, then Mommy Bear, and he even threw new Teddy to the wall.  After the fit, Logan started crying in frustration.  He was crying so sad that I was tempted to go over to give him a hug.  Stuart picked up him as soon as he started crying in attempt to console him.  He was still sobbing when Stuart took him to go potty.  Stuart then laid down with him trying to get him to sleep, and Logan was hugging Stuart for comfort.  Eventually, Stuart had to bring him some warm milk before Logan could return to sleep on his own.  According to Stuart, Logan was just saying some random things earlier, but did not mention about Teddy.  However we wondered if this night awakening was a result of missing Teddy.
 
     While I was watching the monitor, I remembered how Logan would keep holding Teddy, saying hello to people including strangers, and he would use Teddy to give all of us lots of kisses.  He used Teddy to show his affections.  But now this gesture was not existing the last couple of days.  We all miss Teddy a lot.  It is strange that we could have such strong feeling toward a non-living object.
 
     Logan used to bring old Teddy out with him when he woke up in the mornings, but he had not done that with the new one.  Stuart asked Logan this morning if he wanted Little Brother Teddy to come sit with him, but Logan actually said no.  Stuart decided to bring him out anyway to place on Logan’s lap for a hug.  On the way to the car, Logan only took a small McQueen with him, but we did bring new Teddy out just in case.  Before I took Logan out of the carseat, he placed both McQueen and new Teddy in the pocket of the carseat.  He was being playful and told me to be quiet so Teddy would go to sleep, and he said he will say “boo” to wake him after school today.  I am glad that he was playing a bit with the new Teddy, but I know he MISSES his old Teddy!